“We can make our own plans, but the Lord determines our steps”
So for some reason, God decided to keep putting me ahead in life. I grew up pretty quickly at a young age when my brother was diagnosed with a brain disorder and was in the hospital for weeks at a time. I decided the night before school started to switch to a private Christian education. God opened the door for me to be in a program where I would graduate from my senior year of high school with an associate’s degree as well. And now He has opened the next door for me as well. Suddenly, I graduated high school on August Third. Either I am just an impatient girl, or God really needs me to be in a certain place at a specific time.
Before I go into my recap of my high school career, I want to get into the logistics of how I graduated early. Since I am in a college launch program and getting my associates degree, I had all of the credits I needed to get my diploma by the end of the summer. If I would have stayed with my high school, this would not have been possible because I needed a couple more credits my school required ( which is totally fine ). Since it is a Christian high school, I needed a couple of Bible credits which are not Indiana diploma standards.
I’m not graduating early because I hated my school or the teachers. They all taught me so much and being in a Christian environment everyday set up such an amazing foundation for my faith at such a young age, and I am so thankful for that! Nothing in me regrets going to a Christian school! I don’t know where I would be today without going to a Christian school. I am also not graduating early because I got kicked out of school or something like that. The reason I am graduating early is simply that I wanted to. I decided to graduate early, so I did it. It was a super easy transition, and God opened the door. I decided to walk through it, so here I am on this new path!
Going from preparing for my senior year of high school to becoming a high school graduate in the matter of a couple of weeks was a plot twist I didn’t expect. I don’t know what is going to happen next for me, or what I am supposed to do with my life now other than take my college classes until May. But God is going to be doing some crazy things, and I can’t even imagine right now what those things are. I am so excited to look back someday and see why God is doing this in my life right now.
I prayed and prayed for God’s guidance for my future. I prayed that he would lead me clearly to a specific thing, person, or location. But now God just rushed the entire waiting period I had, the security senior year brings. He is probably laughing at me right now because all of my “plans” for my life get thrown out the window. But on a positive note, without the waiting period, the feeling of dread and worry is gone. It’s all about just giving it to God and putting my whole mission here on earth totally in His hands.
I used to think I knew exactly what I wanted to do with my life. I planned my entire future. I picked my college and my major, I planned my future wedding, and I planned who I wanted to be. But the more I follow God’s path for me, the more I realize how much better life is for me right now because it is wrapped in God’s love and provision every step of the way. I’m human, and I still worry like crazy about what I am supposed to do after this, but it is such a comfort to know that God is handling everything. I don’t have to do it myself because He is in total control.
Over the past three years, I am not going to say I had the perfect high school experience. Freshman year I was involved in every single school activity and I was struggling in my faith and who I wanted to be. Freshman year I started this blog, hoping to have a voice in the crowds of people. I slowly started becoming who God wanted as the year continued, but I was still growing. Sophomore year crushed my spirit and wrecked the girl I used to be. Sometimes I miss her. I was the person who was the loudest in the room and didn’t care what anyone thought of her. But slowly, after God took many people out of my life and allowed things to happen to me; I was a new person. Someone who never felt good enough. Someone who knew they needed God in those dark times more than ever before. Trials create character and spiritual maturity, and that is something I will always stand by.
I totally can’t write all this self-reflection about my entire high school experience without talking about Bryce. Bryce is the one who reminded me of the blessings God brings in the hard times. If I didn’t have Bryce through sophomore year, I don’t know who I’d be today. My Sophomore year taught me that the whole world can be against you as long as you have one person who stands by you unconditionally and sees the person God created you to be when they look past the brokenness.
Anyways, Sophomore year got a bit better as it continued, and soon I was given the opportunity to join a program where I could start working on my associate’s degree and get it at the same time I graduated high school. So, I decided to do it. I am so glad I attended the meeting that evening. I was so hopeful for the next year of my high school career. I was ready for the challenges that would come and the future benefits it could bring.
That August, almost exactly a year ago, Bryce left for boot camp. I didn’t know how I was going to survive without him. But God got me through, which is evident if you have been keeping up on my blogs the past year. I had to learn how to be strong and independent by myself, which was good for me and taught me many valuable lessons.
Junior year was the best year of my high school career. It was also the fastest school year of my entire life. I was so focused on school and so busy with volleyball and cheer that it flew by. I loved my classes, and I loved being so busy all of the time. I felt like I had a purpose and a bigger goal in life. I am the type of person who wants to do great things, but I don’t know exactly what that great thing is yet. Getting my associate’s degree is a great start to whatever God has for me. Even though Bryce is stationed in Virginia, we still got to see each other every couple of months which was such a blessing. I hope that this upcoming year I can visit him just as much.
And now, all of a sudden, I am done with high school. Though it was sometimes the worst experience of my life, some of it brought memories I will never forget. I am so thankful for all the volleyball games and team dinners, arguments in Bible class, and sleepovers on school nights. I’m glad I had the high school experience I did because, without it, I wouldn’t be the same person I am today. It wasn’t your typical high school experience by any means. I only went to school half of the day my sophomore and junior year. I didn’t love high school as so many people do. Which is totally okay! Everyone is different and has different needs. God created us to be that way.
The main concern people I have talked to about me starting college when I’m 16, getting my high school diploma at 17, and my college diploma at 18 is me missing out on my senior experience. But in today’s world, everyone’s story looks different. So don’t be afraid to be different. People will judge your choices no matter what you do, so follow God’s plan. Don’t do what everyone else does if it makes you unhappy. Go against the flow of this world, follow the difficult but rewarding path God guides us down. Through Him, we have strength. Through Him, we have confidence. And through Him, we have a life that has been created and cultivated by God. God never calls us to plan our own life. But he does have a plan he created for each and every one of us. Just surrender and follow it one day at a time. Hand Him the pen to write your life story, and He will create something better than you ever could have expected. That’s all you can do.
See ya later,