So guys I’m gonna be honest, this whole school year has literally been so hard for me. I’ve totally lost myself the past five months, and I don’t know what to do about it. I saw a quote yesterday that said, “ There comes a point where you no longer care if there’s a light at the end of the tunnel or not. You’re just sick of the tunnel.” This quote REALLY hit home yesterday, and I realized that I’ve just been walking through life with my head down trying to get past the bad. The problem with this is that if you always have your head down, you aren’t looking up to see the good in the world.
I know that on this blog I always try to be so cheerful and happy, because I really want to encourage people in a super positive way. However, sometimes true encouragement isn’t happy or positive. Sometimes it’s just making light out of an issue and trying to make sense of it.
I don’t really know who I am anymore, and honestly, that’s okay. I feel trapped sort of. I don’t know how to get out of the rut that I’m in. I want to go live life to the fullest, but I don’t know how to do that. I want to go do awesome and unique things with my life, but I’m not exactly sure what those things are.
So if you’re feeling like how I do right now, I want to encourage you to not give up the fight. Keep fighting to find yourself, and try to find good in life. Over the next couple of weeks, I’m really gonna focus on trying to find out what I wanna do with my life for the second semester of school. I need to take some time to just pray that God will show me what to do. I encourage you to do the same.
I’ve also stopped caring about pretty much everything, which is NOT good. So I’m gonna try to start caring again about things like friendships, working hard, and being happy. Life isn’t always easy, and it’s really hard for me to get past this mountain that has been placed before me this year. I think it will make me stronger though in the future. God has a future for me, He has a future for all of us. It may not be what we want, but He is ALWAYS good. I’m trying to rest in that.
I’m really thankful that I have found such a passion for writing, and I can’t wait to use it to share God’s glory! Please pray for me as I make some decisions the next few weeks… they would be greatly appreciated!