Hey everyone! So tonight I was feeling pretty down on myself. Sometimes I feel like I’ll never be good enough. Not good enough to share the word of God, be a Christian, and certainly not good enough to have a blog. However, I realized that I’m not perfect, and I shouldn’t listen to the lies Satan puts in my head.
People can judge me or my life based off of what they see on social media. But do they know me? That’s my question. If you don’t know me or haven’t talked to me on a personal level even in the past few months, you don’t know me. I feel like people think they know a person based off of their recent Snapchat or post on Instagram.
Even though I post a lot, I’m actually a very private person. I go through so many things that I don’t even talk about in my blog, because I want them to be personal and special to me. I know that sometimes I post things that raise a brow, but just know that I make mistakes just like you. I’m not going to be perfect or a perfect Christian. No one is a perfect Christian no matter how much we try to pretend. I learn from my mistakes and I grow from them. We all sin and make mistakes, sometimes others mistakes just aren’t revealed to 300 people on a story or post. Sometimes I feel really targeted by others, but maybe it’s just all in my head.
If I’ve ever posted anything that has offended anyone, no matter when it was, I’m so sorry! I’m trying harder to be careful about what I put online or do in my personal time. I want everything I do to reflect God and His goodness, so I’m going to try even harder to follow Him closer.
Honestly, I don’t really do much! I hang out with Sierra, my family, and that’s pretty much it! I don’t party, I don’t go do crazy, sinful things on the weekends. I feel like some people think I do these things, and I want to clarify! I don’t talk to hardly anyone, and I avoid a lot of situations where I feel awkward or out of place because I’m actually really shy!
I think that sometimes my shyness and fear prevent me from a lot of opportunities, but I’m going to try harder to reach out to others and make more friends. Me being shy also makes me seem sort of stuck up, but I promise I’m not! If you see me sitting quietly, I probably actually feel really awkward haha!
So, I kinda wanted to post this to clear things up. I was scrolling through Pinterest earlier, and I saw a quote which said :
God is going to send you places you don’t feel qualified to go. God doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the called!
So, I’m not going to stop blogging or sharing God’s love no matter what. No matter what you do in life, there will always be people doubting you. But God never doubts us, he forgives us for our sins, and is our greatest comforter. Remember that God welcomes all of us into His kingdom, as long as we follow on His path. Life is about growth and perseverance. Not about being perfect. I try harder everyday to do what is right and walk on God’s path, not my own. I hope you all do too. – Cami