“ Just love yourself “
“ You’re already skinny you don’t need to lose weight “
“ Just get over it”
Comments like these literally go in one ear and out the other. I want to talk to you guys today about something that really hits home for me and it’s something that I struggle with. That topic is self confidence. I want to start to regain a new sense of self confidence and I hope you all will join me!
Sophomore year has honestly been so rough for me with self image. Mainly my weight. I seriously obsess over it so much that it’s ridiculous. Satan has definitely been using my small insecurities and magnifying them so much. It has taken a toll on my happiness and well being, and it’s been horrible.
It’s so draining to be insecure. Looking in the mirror and thinking you’re fat is the worst feeling ever. No matter how much weight you lose or how many meals you skip, you still will never be content.
Self hate wrestles with every ounce of happiness you have in your body. It ruins beach days, your new skinny jeans, and cute selfies with friends. It puts an ugly blotch on something that could be so simple and joyful. It makes you stop loving ice cream, or McDonald’s chicken nuggets. It is always in the back of your head, telling you that you aren’t enough.
I’m writing about this not because I want to, but because I think I can share my feelings and maybe have it touch someone else. I know it is a super personal thing to talk about, but I can’t brush it under the rug any farther. I really need to turn to scriptures and focus on the love that Christ has for me. I also want to be totally open with y’all all my blog, and I wanna share my struggles too, because I’m not perfect at all!
A verse that has really been helping me in my hard times is 1 Samuel 16:7 which says:
But the Lord said to Samuel, “ Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.
This verse really humbles me because it reminds me to not obsess over how much weight I lost this week or how good my eyebrows look. It ensures me that instead of working on my outer appearance constantly, I need to work on my heart first.
Write this verse down on a sticky note and stick it in your car, on your mirror, or put it as your phone background. Put it somewhere so you can see it everyday and be reminded that we don’t need to be insecure because all that matters is our hearts. I hope you all will begin to work on self confidence through Christ like I am, and hopefully we can begin this hard but wonderful journey together! – Cami