So, today’s the post I’ve been planning for and dreading ever since March. Today was the day that Bryce left for the Coast Guard.
After crying every single night the past six months, the day that I thought my life would end is finally here.
At the beginning of me and Bryce’s relationship, we sat and watched the stars. I saw my first shooting star with him laying next to me, and suddenly I knew a new chapter of life was starting. Months of happiness in a dream like state occurred. Bryce and I are seriously a power couple. We have so, so much fun together. He’s my best friend and my love!!
However, all good things like that come to an end at some point. A few nights ago we were swimming and we watched the stars again. It was the closure I needed for that chapter. However, the stars remind us how small our problems are and how BIG God is.
Changes like this change us. They shape us into who we are meant to be. They hurt, and most of the time we don’t want them. But they are essential. I’d be lying to you if I said I was doing okay with him leaving. Night after night of crying in the car together and day after day of hugging so tight because we didn’t want the moment to end. But time goes on. We can’t stop it no matter how hard we try.
So, today I said goodbye to my boyfriend and my best friend. The person who I spent literally all my time with and made every single summer memory with. I said goodbye to one chapter, but am saying hello to the next. I’m so proud of Bryce. He is strong, and he is so brave. I’m praying for him 24/7 because I know things will be hard for him.
I could’ve told him not to go and I knew he wouldn’t of. But I didn’t want my selfish desires to interfere with God’s plan for Bryce’s life. So I let go for a while. We are two people who love each other so very much, and that’s enough to make things last. If we are meant to stay together, it will happen. You make your own choices in this life, no one can make your choices for you except God.
So be praying for Bryce and I. Things will be so hard for him at bootcamp! And I’ll be at home missing him all of the time. I’ll continue to update you all on this journey. The good, the bad, and the ugly. But all I can say is that I’m so proud to be a military girlfriend. It won’t be easy, but when I see Bryce again and get to hug him close I will remember why I’m waiting in the first place.