Jesus Changed My Heart

Hey guys! So about a year and a couple months ago I got baptized. I want to share today about how Jesus has transformed my life since I was baptized.

When we are baptized, it means that we are truly giving our lives to God. Whatever it mean and includes, he will change us and shape us into who he wants us to be and what he wants us to do.

Before being baptized, I sort of followed Jesus but I definitely was a lukewarm Christian. I also didn’t feel the presence of God daily. I sort of only felt him at camps, retreats, or conferences. I remember in seventh grade God told my heart, let go of all the emotion and pain and choose me. But I fought it and I didn’t let go. Over the next couple of years, he continually pushed these words on my heart. I just never wanted to let go and give up my life to God.

But after going through a hard time my summer before sophomore year, I chose Jesus. I chose to follow God’s word and change my life. So, I decided that the first thing I needed to do was be baptized. I jumped at the chance and I was so ready to give my life up to Jesus.

However, when I was baptized, I honestly knew about what it meant but I didn’t really 100% know what it meant. But I knew God was calling me to give my life to him, so I just trusted in him and did it. Sometimes I feel like we think we should fully understand what God wants us to do before we do what he says, but this isn’t the case at all. We don’t need to know what God is doing and we don’t need to know what is going to happen next, we just need to say yes.

The past year after being baptized has been hard at times but it has also been so amazing. Jesus has changed my heart and he has changed my life. He has changed my outlook on life and he has made my heart so full.

Something that has been conflicting me a lot is that so many Christians lack the relationship aspect with Jesus. He is so personal to all of us. He literally picks us out of the dust. Don’t be afraid of a relationship with him.

I know that sometimes I held back in my faith because I didn’t think I was good enough to follow him. I made so many mistakes when I was younger and the enemy just kept putting lies into my head that I would never be more than my sin. But guys, you aren’t your sin. You are made in God’s image. He makes us pure. He changes our heart. He breaks us and builds us up into so much more than what we could be without him.

Another lesson I’ve learned is to be yourself. So many times we look at others and how God is working in them and we say “ oh I want to be like them. “ or we will be listening to a worship song and say “ oh I wish that I could sing like them so I could lead worship at my church. “ but instead of looking at others and wanting to be like them, we should only look to Jesus. He makes a plan for just you. We can look at other Christians and stand behind them to encourage them and thank God for using them. But God is using YOU in a totally different way. Be who God has created you to be instead of being someone who is trying to copy another Christian. Be confident in who Jesus made you to be! You are made in His image! Know who you are in his image and cheer on others when they are doing good things for Jesus.

The past couple months have been so busy and have been rough, but I am feeling so blessed and Jesus has continued to change my heart. I know this post was all over the place and probably has a lot of mistakes or doesn’t make sense at some points. But I don’t like to edit my posts because it takes away the authenticity of them. I love y’all and I hope you have a great week! If anyone has questions or wants to share with me about what I talked about today feel free to message me or comment on this post! I’m praying that you will all have a good weekend and that you will be confident in who Jesus made you to be! – Cami

Glowing and Growing

f95f02c3-205d-4118-8e8d-97f023fdfcfeHey everyone! I just want to talk to you all about some personal growth I have had this year so far. I have been so, so busy so that is why I do not blog as much anymore- I just don’t have the time! But a lot of people have been asking me to update y’all on what is going on in my life so that is what I am going to blog about today.

So I have been in school for about a month now. Though it has been very busy and stressful at some points these past few weeks, it has honestly been really great. My classes are going well and I am enjoying getting a small taste of what college is like. I am managing all of my homework pretty well too. However, I will be pretty stressed soon because I have some group projects coming up.

I have also enjoyed playing volleyball on my school’s team. It is so much fun to get to play the sport that I love everyday. It has made life a lot more busy, but I really love it so I enjoy it so much. I am one of the older ones on the team, so I have loved being a leader to the younger girls on the team.

I am taking a class right now where I am making my own Study Bible. It is so enjoyable to be creative and worship God while I am doing it. With all the stressful events going on in my life, sitting down to work on my Bible at the end of a tiring day is a highlight for sure. It helps me calm down, unwind, and really focus on what is important.

The final thing that has been going on in my life has to do with Bryce. He called me last Friday! I was so happy and it made my day. It is crazy how two people can work out a relationship if they really love each other. So the phone call was a highlight to me. Sadly, his graduation date isn’t actually until October 12th, so I won’t be seeing him for another month. That really bummed me out! I just seriously want to see him so badly haha. The only thing getting me through not having Bryce here is Jesus. Though I love him so much, Jesus is the one who can truly satisfy our hearts.

Without God, I would be so negative and lost right now in life. Instead, I choose joy. I choose joy because I am so extensively blessed. I have amazing friends, a great family, I am getting an education, and I have a boyfriend who is so selfless that he gave up his life here to go serve his country. I thank God for these blessings everyday. I thank him for the little blessings too. Iced coffee to get me through the day. Belly aching laughs with my friends. A phone call. A good grade on a quiz. The little blessings get me though the day, while the big blessings get me through my life.

God is so good. I hope you will all rest in that fact this week. Please be praying for me and be praying for Bryce! Also remember to live your best lives while ya still got em!- Cami 🙂

Halfway There!

Today is day 25 that Bryce has been gone. It’s so weird not having him here with me to start off the school year, but somehow I’m surviving.

It’s so, so hard having a boyfriend at bootcamp and not being able to talk to him. This experience has been one of the most stretching ones in my life. I often catch myself reaching for my phone to text him. And sometimes I almost call him because I want to ask him to come over. But sadly, I don’t have that privilege anymore.

This experience has also gave me so much appreciate for first of all those who serve in the military, and an appreciation for those who love someone in the military. It is one of the most self sacrificing things to give up literally your entire life and everything you know to go serve your country. It will take you all over the world, and change your life from normal to protecting the normal.

It’s really hard not having Bryce here. But thankfully, all of this is almost halfway over. I’m so, so proud of him because I would never be able to do what he is doing right now. I’m so amazed by his strength, endurance, and motivation. Whenever I’m working on homework or at volleyball practice and I want to just quit, I think about what Bryce is doing and it really helps me keep going.

I dream of the day I can talk to him or see him. I know that these days may be few and far in between, but they are what give me hope. Sometimes I just break down and lay in my bed all night and cry, but I’m trying to limit those nights as much as possible. Overall, I’m doing a pretty good job at staying positive about everything.

Something that’s really interesting is that when I’m at my lowest of missing him and feeling like I can’t take it anymore, God places a blessing in my life that gets me through. A sweet note from a friend. A group of amazing girls praying over me and Bryce. A fun dinner. An “A” on a test. An awesome evening spent worshiping God. God is blessing me so much through this hard time. Some people would be so mad at God for placing their boyfriend in the military. But I am praising him now more than ever before. I’m praising him because his plan is perfect, even if it isn’t the ideal one I think of right now. I praise him because he has a wonderful plan for the guy that I love, one where he can help others and use his talents. I’m praising him for an opportunity to focus on just me and my talents, faith, and school.

He is so good. Sometimes we ignore his blessings in the hard times, but I want to encourage you all to praise him during these times. It is the only thing that will get you through. If I wasn’t a believer, I don’t know how I would be handing all of this.

A song that has helped me through this is called Weep With Me. Some of the words that stick out to me are:

Part the seas

Lord, make a way for me

Here in the midst of my lament

I have faith, yes I still believe

That You love me

Your plans are to prosper me

You’re working everything for good

Even when I can’t see

So, things are pretty hard right now, but I’m still praising God! I’m also so thankful for a way to communicate with Bryce. I have received three letters from him, and I am so thankful he has written me! I’ve also sent him about 20, but hey I want him to know I love him 😂 have a great day everyone, please be praying for Bryce today – Cami