My Love

So I’ve been wanting to write a blog lately about someone who is very, very special to me. This person is my amazing and caring boyfriend, Bryce. Bryce has literally changed my life for the better and has turned my perspective on life upside down.

Bryce and I met on Labor Day weekend, during a church camping trip. We didn’t really even talk that much during the trip, but we were with a group of people and we had a blast at beaches, bonfires, and late night card games. On the last night of our camping trip, Bryce and I stargazed together. In fact, I saw my first shooting star with him. This is really cheesy, but after that shooting star I literally fell in love with him.

Over the next few weeks, me and Bryce started texting a lot and really got to know each other. We hung out at church and things like that, and let me tell ya, I was totally thrilled when he sat by ME during the Sunday morning services. I was smitten over this guy who I’d been going to church with for two whole years and I never even noticed him before! Crazy, right?

Anyways, I didn’t know Bryce that well, so I for sure proceeded the relationship with caution. I didn’t want my heart broken by a boy I had just met! Anyways, I decided that if Bryce really liked me, Bryce would chase after me like crazy. And surprisingly, he did! He never gave up and kept chasing after me until I finally let my guards down.

When I let them down, a relationship began to build up. This boy liked me so much that he even drove TWO hours to watch my volleyball sectional. I seriously began to totally fall for him.

So, that’s kinda where things began, and things between us have been growing so much. It would seriously take me so long to write everything that has happened between us the past three months, so there’s how it began.

Bryce has changed me. He has been my constant rock, my best friend, and love all in one. When everything else fell apart in life, Bryce was always there to comfort me. He makes me feel beautiful, he makes me feel worthy, and he makes me feel like everything I do is important.

Bryce tells me that he wants to love me like Jesus loves me. And though no one is perfect, I know that he is doing an amazing job so far.

And maybe that’s what love is. It’s two people falling together at a time totally unexpected. It’s two people who have broken pasts looking past the imperfections and seeing beauty in the brokenness. It’s waking up at 4 am just to tell the other person good morning, and going to bed at midnight because the other can’t sleep. It’s about growing up together, and supporting the other person no matter what.

Bryce and I have only known each other for three months, but I’ve never met anyone like him. We’ve never argued, he’s never made me cry, and he’s never made me feel like my ambitions or ideas are impossible. He makes me feel like I have wings and that I can fly through life.

So here’s my advice to you- wait for your Bryce. Wait for the boy who will send you packages in the mail just because, or tell you that he’s praying for you. I promise you he’s out there. Just let God bring him to you, and things will be so perfect that you’ll wonder why you ever thought there was anyone else for you. God will bring someone who is your support system and your best friend. Someone who you can laugh with, talk about God with, and cry with. Bryce truly brings out the best in me, and I can’t wait to see what our future holds.

I can’t wait for the many more Sunday mornings we will share together, or our coffee dates, or our talks with my mom. He brings me good books, he takes me to goodwill, and he comes over every single chance he gets. It’s truly the little things that mean the most. I hope you all have a great morning and remember to wait for the one God has meant to be in your life during a certain time ❤️🤗

His Will in the Works

It’s time for another blog!

This time, I wanna talk about truly following God’s will for our lives!

For about three months, I have been praying so hard that God will work in my life in a way that glorifies Him, not me. I prayed long and hard for His will to be done, no matter how much it hurt me. I knew that He had a greater plan and a greater purpose for me.

However, following God’s path isn’t always a walk in the park. Sometimes, God is gonna take you through a rainstorm just to get to some shelter. You just have to look UP. Don’t focus on worldly things. Who cares about what other people think about you? Push aside your human emotions and desires to focus on the one whom your soul LOVES.

Sometimes, living the life God made for you isn’t always easy, and just because it is the life you are living, doesn’t mean that it’s about you. Our lives are not about us at all. Our lives are made to share the gospel and the love of Jesus to everyone we can.

This month, I’ve been trying so hard to humble myself. To follow his path and give myself up to glorify Him. It has not been easy, and it’s never going to be easy. But when we someday enter the gates of Heaven, it will be so worth it to look into Jesus’s eyes and see Him smiling back at us.

Submitting to the Lord for me is creating a father- daughter relationship. It’s about finding the calm to your storm and throwing your hands up in the air asking God what in the world he wants you to do.

God IS working in my life. The closer I’ve begun to follow him, the more trials I have gone through. Let me tell y’all, life has been ROUGH. But my God has brought me some wonderful people and some wonderful things that really have helped me through this life so far! Even though things have been hard, I wouldn’t want them any other way. I’ll follow whatever God wants me to do!

Another thing I wanna talk about is our sins. For such a long time, I was held back by my sins. Sometimes, I still am. But we serve a God who has a boundless mercy and forgives us no matter what we did. Don’t let your sin keep you from growing in your faith, instead, repent and use it to become stronger. Don’t give up on your God or your faith. Don’t let other people tell you that you aren’t good enough to follow Him or share His word.

Sometimes, it is hard to see, but God brings hurt into our lives and breaks things that we think are so good and fun. He breaks them apart so he can open us to new opportunities in our lives, into things so great that we can’t even comprehend. When God does this, we don’t always know WHY. But we can rest in the fact that God’s plan is ALWAYS good. God has shown me this when I decided to go to my school only half day! I was just having a really rough year overall, and I decided I couldn’t do full day anymore. So, since I only went half day, I found some volunteer work that I can do in a much needed place! God used ME to fill a spot that people have been praying to be filled! I’m so thankful that I can help out in a place that needed it!

I know this blog was a little scattered ( as usual ) but I just wanted to encourage some of you tonight! Have an awesome week! 🤗

Following God’s Path 

Hi y’all 🙂 
So the past few days I’ve been thinking a lot, and I’m wondering if anyone feels the way I do about high school life. 
Soooo ever since I was in sixth grade I’ve been going on mission trips every single summer. I’ve always LOVED them. Like. So much. And I also love to travel as much as possible. Traveling has for sure impacted my life so much, especially the past couple of years. 
Lately, I’ve been reaching out trying to learn as much as I can about long-term mission trips. This is because I really want to go on mission trips but I don’t exactly wanna be a missionary if that makes sense? Anyways, I’ve found some pretty cool opportunities for after I graduate high school, which is so amazing. 
So back to my point. I feel like everyone at school wants that cookie cutter Christian life. You know, go to high school, get into a Christian college, get married, get a stable job and then have some kids. 
Now don’t get me wrong, if that’s what God is calling you to do, that’s great! Follow His path always. However, I feel like for me, there’s so much more to life than just that. My soul longs for MORE. 
More of Jesus. More of love. More of passion. More of strength. 
I’m truly just curious if anyone else feels the way I do. Is there anyone else out there who wants to take on the world? Sometimes, it feels like I’m the only one. If you feel like me, please remember that there’s more to life than what this small town offers. So follow your dreams, be everything and anything you want to be. Take joy in the person God has blessed you to be. 
For me personally, I think that I’m gonna try to graduate high school early, go and do missions for a couple of years, take on college, write a few books, and major in nutritional sciences and minor in creative writing! But hey that’s dreaming pretty big. Set your goals one by one, and conquer them everyday. Grow everyday. Don’t be stuck in this high school drag. 
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot, and I decided to switch to only going to school half day. I get my core classes in, and I have time for other things that I want to do! I’m probably gonna be doing some online classes, and a new job is coming my way! I’m so excited to see where God takes me! 

My Fitness Journey 

Okay so I really wanted to make a post about my fitness journey so that’s what I’m gonna do 🙂 
When I was in the fifth grade, I started playing club volleyball. I enjoyed it so much and had so much fun, but I was always sad and insecure because I thought I looked fat and ugly in my uniform. I was not naturally a little tiny girl like most, I was a little bigger and taller. Anyways, so even in fifth grade I thought I was fat. I thought the same when I was in sixth grade, and I even put myself on a diet because I still felt bigger than all of the other girls. 
In seventh grade, I found myself at the lowest point. I had thinned out, but my body was still awkward. I didn’t know anything about nutrition, so I didn’t really eat healthy or anything. I was still doing club volleyball, so after practice I would attempt to work out. 
In eighth grade, I started a new school and I became a lot happier and mentally healthier. I was still eating terrible but about halfway through the year I started to eat healthy. I also attempted working out, but I seriously had no idea what I was doing haha. 
Freshman year was when I started to ” glow up ” or whatever you wanna call it when you’re coming out of your awkward phase. I got contacts and colored my hair, I swapped out my weird clothes for new trendy outfits, and I tried to be someone I wasn’t. Trying to be a ” new me ” or whatever resulted in me once again, trying to lose weight. I STILL didn’t know anything about nutrition, so I literally would have a banana for breakfast, a cliff bar and carrots for lunch, and then I would BINGE every day after school. And when I say binge I mean binge. I would eat like four sandwiches and chips and have a Coke or a Dr. Pepper. This resulted in me being disgusted in myself and getting an even lower self esteem. Not having the proper nutrition also made me get sick literally all of the time. I missed probably half of the volleyball season and about ten days of school in ONE nine week period. Anyways, I eventually gave into my cravings for good and decided that I wasn’t gonna be able to lose weight or change my body. 
Having this basic teenage attitude of not caring really effected my body. I also never worked out, so I lost all of the muscle I had built for the past like five years. I never drank water, which made me not have good skin. I wasn’t happy with my body at all, but I kinda just gave up on health and fitness. I just accepted that I would be thick forever. 
In March, I decided that I wanted to be fit. So, I joined track. However, I was lifting twice a week so I just got even bigger! I didn’t know anything about fitness, and I just got more and more insecure.
Finally, when summer came I decided that I wanted to change for real and change the right way. I started off by cutting out meat and bread for a while , and then I started working out everyday. For about a month I really didn’t eat very much, which isn’t good, but it helped me drop ten pounds pretty quickly. 
Since school started, I’ve been pretty busy with volleyball, but I’ve still made fitness and heath a priority in my life. I eat A LOT of food, but I only eat food that is healthy and properly fuels my body. I also make a point to get lots of water in my body, and I usually drink about a gallon a day! I try to not consume any dairy at all, because I personally believe that all dairy is bad dairy ( but that’s just my opinion I’ve gathered ) I also make sure to workout everyday after volleyball practice for about 30 minutes, and my body is starting to shed more unhealthy weight. I’ve lost about 5-8 more pounds since school started, and I’m getting a lot more confident in myself. I’m going to try to lose about 7 more pounds and then I’m gonna begin toning my body up so I can still be skinny, yet strong. 
My health and fitness journey is just beginning, but I’m already so happy with my life and body now. I’m finding that I have such a interest and a passion for nutrition, and I’m considering being a nutritionist or dietician. Just know that if you are unhappy or insecure about yourself, you can start making little changes TODAY. Take care of yourself, and begin working on the body of your dreams! If you have any questions or concerns about diets or fitness, I’d be happy to answer or refer you to some of my favorite and informative novels and documentaries about the subject. Love y’all! Stay strong and motivated! ☀️🌻

Some Wednesday Motivation

Hi y’all!! It’s been a while since I last made a blog, but I decided to update everyone today!

So honestly the past couple of months have actually been some of the hardest times of my life, but I’ve learned so much. Through losing people I thought I’d have for the long run, losing happiness, and losing things I thought I’d have forever, these past couple of months have brought on a new pain that I’ve never had to face before.

But as they say…. every cloud has a silver lining! Even though I’ve lost so much, I’ve reinvented myself. I’ve made some new bomb bffs, had a great volleyball season, and worked on myself!

These past couple of months I’ve been trying to improve myself into the person I’ve always wanted to be!! I’ve been working out a whole lot harder, I’ve been trying really hard to get that 4.0, and I’ve been working on my relationship with God. With all of these new changes, I’m slowly but surly becoming a new ME🤗

I wanna encourage everyone to cut out all the bad and negative in their lives, and to rejoice in the new opportunities that life has to offer!

I’m getting happier with my life right now, but some big changes are soon to come.. I’m ready to take a 180 on my life as it is! Weather that means finishing up high school speedy quick and going to Greece or Bali for a couple years to do some missions, or even sticking around and working at starting college; I’m so ready to see what my next chapter holds!

Just remember that even though we are in high school, you can begin the life that you’ve always dreamed of! Start accomplishing your dreams today, the only one stopping you is YOU. I know this is a pretty lighthearted post, but I just wanted to update and encourage y’all today! 🤗

I am His

I am definitely excited to be announcing to everyone that I am going to be baptized on August 6th.
These past couple months of summer have been rough on me. My faith has been greatly tested many times. Sometimes I failed, and sometimes I conquered sin. Mentally I have been weak and I have been struggling greatly with self worth and insecurities. 
After my missions trip, I began to realize that self worth doesn’t come from abs or a thigh gap or how good your contour is. I have begun to see things through a new light, especially the past couple of weeks. 
I’m ready to officially ( finally ) declare that I belong to Jesus. No one else. It’s time for me to mature in my faith, and I’m so greatly and deeply overjoyed to follow God’s path for my life. 
I want to thank everyone who has encouraged me in my faith the past couple of years as I have transitioned into my faith in Jesus. 
First of all, I want to thank Lakeland. Two years ago, I was introduced to a place where The Gospel was so present. I didn’t understand the Bible or anything in it, really. Lakeland has helped my faith so greatly, and I’m so blessed that I live in a town with a school that shows all of its students God’s love and forgiveness. 
I also want to thank my friends and classmates. From constantly lecturing me when I’m making a terrible decision ( Morgan ) and late night texts asking how I’m doing with my faith, they have all played bigger parts in my faith than I can ever express. They have directed me to Christ when I have needed it, and loved me for who God created me. 
I want to thank my parents for always making home a safe space and teaching me how to live a Christian life and love Jesus. They also allow me to go to Lakeland and they keep me accountable, and I’m so grateful. 
I want to thank all of the adults in my life who have pushed me in my faith, encouraged me, and have given me chances to love God and serve Him. Thank you to the adults who have taken me on mission trips, who have prayed with me, and who have loved me unconditionally over the years. Your wonderful examples will continue to impact my faith my entire life. 
And of course, I am so thankful for a God who loves us at our darkest. I’ve made countless mistakes the past few years, but Jesus still forgives me. I’m thankful that He gives me hope for the future and helps me forget my dark past. 
Prayers would be greatly appreciated for me the next couple of weeks leading up to my baptism. And if you would like to attend, contact me through social media or message my parents. Thank you to all, and remember to serve the Lord over anything else.

An Untold Story

Gratefulness. Patience. Hope. 

Three key words that God constantly puts into your mind as your sitting in the uncomfortable chairs in the waiting room. Three words that Satan tries to erase from your mind and replace them with anger, impatience, and just plain giving up. 

As I grow older ( slowly haha ) I always think of defining moments in my life that have changed how I walk my walk and talk my talk. 

The first major thing that happened in my life was in the first grade. Now let me just say, thank the Lord that this happened when I was so young, because I could simply not handle it at the age I am at now. 

Sometimes, God blesses us with misunderstanding so we can deal with a situation and have a child-like hope. I was clueless, and sometimes we don’t need to know or understand everything, we are God’s children, so we shouldn’t totally understand why he is doing things in our lives.

One evening at my grandparents house, when my younger brother was nine months old, he woke up from a nap. This nap was the death of a normal life and when he woke up, he was a new person with a new life. 

He began acting, well, weird. Drowsy. Fatigued. These adjectives did not accurately describe my little brother. He was a fierce and rough spirit, and was already running around the yard and getting himself in worlds of trouble. But this little brother isn’t the one whom I know today. 

Later that night, the stroke began to effect him. The left side of his body totally shut down. He couldn’t even smile without it being lopsided. Half of him was gone, made new. 

He was quickly moved from hospital to hospital, until he was moved to my states largest children’s hospital. He was then moved to the emergency unit. We didn’t know if he would make it. 

What a dark time that was. But God’s love showered us. His plan was always and is always good. 

We left that hospital with new knowledge. He had a very rare brain disease that I can not even pronounce ( much less spell correctly ) and they didn’t know how long he would make it. 

Two years later, he went through an extremely intense surgery. I was so young that I became accustomed to these hospital visits, and they were just a waiting game for me. Seven hour surgeries deeply strain the patience of a ten year old. 

My brother can’t use his left hand, and there are some parts of him that were changed by his stroke and disability. But, God has definitely changed him into the person he was meant to be. 

Never have I met someone who compares to my bother. An individual with such a genuine smile and such an optimistic view on life. No one else feels and loves as deeply as my brother. He loves who he is, he loves his ” lefty ” ( which is the nickname for his hand that can not work. ) My brother may not be able to use his left hand, but he sure knows how to live. He is the strongest person I know. I admire how he loves others, and I try to love others as good and pure as he does every day. 

Not many know about his conditions, but it has become such a normal incident in my life that I don’t feel as if it needs to be mentioned, because he is so much more than his disability. Already, his life is a unbelievable testimony and has changed and impacted so many around him. 

The doctors say that my brother could pass away or have another stroke at any day. There is no guarantees. But I know that God has quite the plan for him, and he won’t be leaving us anytime soon. 

My brother has taught me how to 

1- Trust in God’s plan 

      His plan is much bigger than we could ever realize. He makes the bad things good. Even in our darkest times, our God is with us, ALWAYS. God brings things, challenges, and people into our life right when we need them. 

2- Have constant joy 

     Life is so great, there are so many small joys hidden within. Searching for lightning bugs late at night. Singing along to the radio at the top of your lungs. Getting ice cream and laughing with your family. Always have joy, and don’t be afraid to sing and dance whenever you feel like it. Have fun in life, you only get to be on this earth once. 

3- Realize life is temporary 

     I’m very young, and at my age, everyone thinks that they are infinite. This is a feeling that I have never really felt. I know that death can come as easy as the sun rises every morning, and that’s okay! Because this is not our home. Our true home is with Christ our Savior in Heaven. Even if my brother does pass away much sooner than we expect, my tears will be of joy because of how much joy his smile brought to me. How amazing it will be for him to enter the Gates of Heaven And oh, how the Lord must love that little boy. 

I guess I wrote this so maybe people could see a part of me that I really have never opened up about to anyone. I’ll admit, it is a hard and emotionally draining topic to talk about. I never want people to think I’m searching for sympathy or pity. I just really don’t like to think about the fact that my brother might not be here to bother me or play Mario cart with. Or someone to hug when I cry for accidentally throwing away the kid’s souvenirs when I get back from a trip. His caring soul blows my mind away. That little boy can make me ugly cry like no other. 

I crave to to inspire others to beat the odds, fight the spiritual battle that Satan attacks you with, because the plan God made for you is much bigger and lovelier than you can even comprehend. 

Isaiah 40:29-31 
      He give strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fail; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. 

Through all of these hard life incidents, I am blessed to know that God has made me a strong soul through this unfortunate event. He gives us strength that can push through the hardest of battles. As Christians, we are called to be strong. We need to have the strength to lead others to The Gospel and show them the love of the Lord. And what is love without strength? Temporary. 

I pray earnestly that God will bless strength into all of His children’s souls, it is much needed. 
                                                   – Cami 

                                                    – 4•15•17 –

Soul Searching Starts Today 

This is the excerpt for your very first post.

Oh, the joy of Spring is in the air. A season for regrowth and new beginnings is running its course. Beauty is growing, and this beauty does not limit itself to trees budding or flowers blooming. I feel as if sometimes we forget that these intriguing beauties can grow and build in our own souls. 

This time of newness is a great time to simply begin something new. So, I figured, ” Hey Cami, let’s challenge yourself this season. Start something new. ” 

I’ve always been an avid writer since I was about four feet tall and catching frogs from my grandparents pond ( I’ve changed quite a bit over the years ). But, my desires did not stop at simply writing. I have a massive desire to be heard in this world. 

There are many things we use to express ourselves on this earth. Photos, songs, fashion… the possibilities are endless as long as we don’t limit ourselves, which proves to be more of a difficulty than it should. 

Any who, I’ve been wanting to start a blog for a while. Things like photos and videos are great forms of expression, but nothing touches the soul like a heartfelt choice of words. Words have power. They can limit you or push you into ideas and dreams that can change your life. 

My goals in life have always been three basic ( but not so simple ) ideas. 

1) To honor God and do what He calls of me

       This is many people’s goal, which is a great and important one. If you honor God, everything else will fall into place. I am quite the stubborn soul. I’ll be the first to admit that this takes MUCH effort from that sinful nature of mine ( but hey, at least I’m trying my best.) 

2) To positively inspire others and build them up
       In life, people have always been mean to me. I’ve been pushed down too many times to count. And I’m very sensitive deep down. Even the smallest of inferior comments still dig at me when I look in the mirror. These things never leave me. SO, I try to never put anyone down because of their looks or personality. I want to inspire everyone to be their OWN best and accomplish their OWN dreams. I hate being pushed down in life, but being pushed down helps everyone break free stronger than ever. 

3) Remembering the small things 
      Life is made up of so many small beauties and moments which most souls choose to forget. Be the person who is quick to pull out your phone and snap a picture of the pretty flowers on the side of the street, or your best friend laughing. Write in your journal when you are feeling a unique emotion of pain or inspiration. Look into your soul and explore the world through a microscope. The seemingly inferior details make up a beautiful picture. A picture almost too big to comprehend. 

Despite these life goals, I live the basic fifteen year old life. I have a Spotify playlist for everything from cleaning my closet to car rides down country roads. I am utterly obsessed with clothing and makeup ( and all those gosh darn beauty gurus on YouTube. ) I take pictures of everything, and I deeply love traveling and experiencing life to the fullest. 

I’m writing this blog so I can look back and remember my struggles, my changes, and my constant soul searching. So here’s to my online journal, public for your viewing, and hopefully an aid in your personal soul searching as well.
                                        – Cami 

                                               – 4•13•17 –