Halfway There!

Today is day 25 that Bryce has been gone. It’s so weird not having him here with me to start off the school year, but somehow I’m surviving.

It’s so, so hard having a boyfriend at bootcamp and not being able to talk to him. This experience has been one of the most stretching ones in my life. I often catch myself reaching for my phone to text him. And sometimes I almost call him because I want to ask him to come over. But sadly, I don’t have that privilege anymore.

This experience has also gave me so much appreciate for first of all those who serve in the military, and an appreciation for those who love someone in the military. It is one of the most self sacrificing things to give up literally your entire life and everything you know to go serve your country. It will take you all over the world, and change your life from normal to protecting the normal.

It’s really hard not having Bryce here. But thankfully, all of this is almost halfway over. I’m so, so proud of him because I would never be able to do what he is doing right now. I’m so amazed by his strength, endurance, and motivation. Whenever I’m working on homework or at volleyball practice and I want to just quit, I think about what Bryce is doing and it really helps me keep going.

I dream of the day I can talk to him or see him. I know that these days may be few and far in between, but they are what give me hope. Sometimes I just break down and lay in my bed all night and cry, but I’m trying to limit those nights as much as possible. Overall, I’m doing a pretty good job at staying positive about everything.

Something that’s really interesting is that when I’m at my lowest of missing him and feeling like I can’t take it anymore, God places a blessing in my life that gets me through. A sweet note from a friend. A group of amazing girls praying over me and Bryce. A fun dinner. An “A” on a test. An awesome evening spent worshiping God. God is blessing me so much through this hard time. Some people would be so mad at God for placing their boyfriend in the military. But I am praising him now more than ever before. I’m praising him because his plan is perfect, even if it isn’t the ideal one I think of right now. I praise him because he has a wonderful plan for the guy that I love, one where he can help others and use his talents. I’m praising him for an opportunity to focus on just me and my talents, faith, and school.

He is so good. Sometimes we ignore his blessings in the hard times, but I want to encourage you all to praise him during these times. It is the only thing that will get you through. If I wasn’t a believer, I don’t know how I would be handing all of this.

A song that has helped me through this is called Weep With Me. Some of the words that stick out to me are:

Part the seas

Lord, make a way for me

Here in the midst of my lament

I have faith, yes I still believe

That You love me

Your plans are to prosper me

You’re working everything for good

Even when I can’t see

So, things are pretty hard right now, but I’m still praising God! I’m also so thankful for a way to communicate with Bryce. I have received three letters from him, and I am so thankful he has written me! I’ve also sent him about 20, but hey I want him to know I love him 😂 have a great day everyone, please be praying for Bryce today – Cami

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Perfectly Loved

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Hello everyone! Tonight I want to talk to you about something that has really been on my heart. I prayed a lot about what to blog about tonight and this just something that God has placed on my heart to speak about to all of you.

Let us begin in the Old Testament and think about what people God used to fulfill His purpose and people he put in the bible for us to follow as examples. God used Moses. Moses was a murderer. God used David. David committed adultery. God used Tamar. Tamar pretended to be a prostitute to trick her father in law so she could have a child from his bloodline. God used Abraham. Abraham did not trust in God’s promise and he slept with his wife’s slave so he could have a child.

If you are not familiar with these Old Testament bible stories, all of the examples I mentioned are great bible stories to read. Each individual story teaches us so much about God’s character and the wickedness of man, the wickedness that is still within us today. The stories are also probably kind of shocking to you. The fact is, based on every person God used in the Old Testament, God uses messed up people. Really, really messed up people.

Moving forward on the Biblical timeline, lets take a look at the Pharisees in the New Testament. A Pharisee was a person who typically separated themselves from the rest of society. They followed strict rules of the Old Testament, and they did not accept that they needed God. Pharisees thought they were more spiritual and more godly than everyone else just because they followed all of the rules. God shows their character in The Scriptures, so lets take a look at a verse.

Luke 18:11-14  “Two men went up into the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee, standing by himself, prayed thus: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week; I give tithes of all that I get.’ But the tax collector, standing far off, would not even lift up his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, saying, ‘God, be merciful to me, a sinner!’ I tell you, this man went down to his house justified, rather than the other. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but the one who humbles himself will be exalted.”

So, Pharisees were basically people who thought they were more holy and just than those who admitted they were sinners. The point I want to make today is that so many Christians are like the Pharisees. We are all like the Pharisees sometimes. We constantly judge those who we notice are sinning. We refuse to love or associate with people in the LGBTQ community. We won’t carry the pregnant girl’s books to class no matter how much her feet might hurt. We don’t share The Gospel with friends who drink or party on the weekends. And even worse- because we don’t do these things, we think we are better than the people who participate in these obvious sins. We think we are favored by God over someone else because we sin differently.

To judge others is worse than the sin itself. We are called to love our neighbor. No exceptions. I know that if Jesus were walking down streets today, he wouldn’t ignore anyone. No matter what they did, he would love them. And he would share the good news of The Gospel.

A question I have for you is how can you accept Jesus as your Savior if you don’t need to be saved? If you were the perfect Christ follower there is no point of even having a Christ. Something that is ironic to me is that those who say they are a perfect Christian are the people who end up being so deep in sin they are drowning and can’t see their own faults. These end up being the people who need Christ so badly but will never admit it.

God uses messed up people, guys. God uses me. I’m so far from perfect or a perfect Christian. The struggle of sin is so hard to resist and combat. The only thing to do to grow in our faith is admit that we are sinners. That we are messed up. Because we need Jesus. We need a Savior. We need to love everyone and not judge others while we are sinning in different way. I pray that you all will be touched by my words tonight, thank you for reading this far along if you did!- Cami

 

Life Lessons

. Hey everyone! Sorry I haven’t blogged in a while! I’ve been super busy lately. School is starting, and it feels like I don’t have a spare minute to breathe.

This weekend is college orientation, it’s currently 12:05 pm, and I have to wake up at 6. So let’s hope that goes well haha. Sometimes I just can’t sleep because I have a lot of stuff on my mind!

It’s been a while since Bryce has been gone, and it’s been pretty hard not having him here when I’m stressed or need someone to talk to. His presence is definitely missed right now in my life. Sometimes you don’t truly appreciate people until they are gone. Bryce defiantly brought some craziness to my life, and somedays were a bit hectic. But he makes me more fun! And reminds me to let loose sometimes. So now I have to remember to give myself some chill time to let God take control of what the next step should be. I downloaded the Sandboxx app so I could write him some letters, and my second one is on its way. I’m really excited for him to get my letters! I pray that they will be a great encouragement to him.

It’s approximately 1 month, 5 days, 23 hours, 51 minutes, and 24 seconds until he graduates bootcamp. It’s crazy how slow the days go by, but how fast the weeks go by. Next week will already be his third week! So everyone who reads this, please pray that Bryce will be having a great week and pray that he will grow in his faith during this hard time of life! I’m sure he would appreciate it! It’s hard not having a boyfriend to talk to, but I’m thankful I can be here and support him through it all.

I’m also thankful that I have been super busy the past couple weeks! I started my high school classes, taught my first seminar on the book of Daniel, randomly joined the volleyball team at my high school, and am beginning my college orientations. Classes start Tuesday. I’m super nervous about them! Something that I’ve struggled with is putting God first in these busy and hard times. Lately I have been resting on the fact that attitude is everything! If I stay positive, everything will work itself out.

Something else I keep thinking about is how God breaks us apart before He builds us up to who He wants us to be. Through these past few weeks, God is making me so strong. I am learning that faith is like working out a muscle. While you are doing the workout, you think it’s the worst part. You don’t think you can get through it. You finally finish it, and you feel so happy it’s finally over. But then it isn’t over. You still hurt for a few days afterwords. You have to climb some stairs, or pick up some textbooks and the pain comes back again. But after those few days past, your muscle is brand new. It’s strong again. It’s rebuilt, and even better than before. Sometimes the pain of life is worth the results we find at the end, and that’s a concept I’m going to accept as a truth in my life.

Be praying for me this week, everyone! – Cami

My Back To School Goals

Hey everyone! Today’s blog post is going to be my goals for the upcoming school year. I start school on Monday, so I need to have some things to motivate me to do well and have some drive! So here are a few of my goals!

1. Make two new friends

2. Workout at least 5 times a week

3. Only drink water & pack healthy lunches

4. Get all A’s

5. Start a girl’s bible study at school

6. Have a positive mindset

7. Do devotions everyday

8. Always have a book to read just for fun

9. Be nice to others and an encourager

10. Blog at least 3 times a week

11. Get a job

So, those are my back to school goals! For those of you starting school, what are your goals? Let me know! I really like school because I love and value learning. I also like to be busy and have a schedule. Enjoy the rest of your summer or the beginning of your school year! – Camille

Saying Goodbye ( for 8 weeks )

So, today’s the post I’ve been planning for and dreading ever since March. Today was the day that Bryce left for the Coast Guard.

After crying every single night the past six months, the day that I thought my life would end is finally here.

At the beginning of me and Bryce’s relationship, we sat and watched the stars. I saw my first shooting star with him laying next to me, and suddenly I knew a new chapter of life was starting. Months of happiness in a dream like state occurred. Bryce and I are seriously a power couple. We have so, so much fun together. He’s my best friend and my love!!

However, all good things like that come to an end at some point. A few nights ago we were swimming and we watched the stars again. It was the closure I needed for that chapter. However, the stars remind us how small our problems are and how BIG God is.

Changes like this change us. They shape us into who we are meant to be. They hurt, and most of the time we don’t want them. But they are essential. I’d be lying to you if I said I was doing okay with him leaving. Night after night of crying in the car together and day after day of hugging so tight because we didn’t want the moment to end. But time goes on. We can’t stop it no matter how hard we try.

So, today I said goodbye to my boyfriend and my best friend. The person who I spent literally all my time with and made every single summer memory with. I said goodbye to one chapter, but am saying hello to the next. I’m so proud of Bryce. He is strong, and he is so brave. I’m praying for him 24/7 because I know things will be hard for him.

I could’ve told him not to go and I knew he wouldn’t of. But I didn’t want my selfish desires to interfere with God’s plan for Bryce’s life. So I let go for a while. We are two people who love each other so very much, and that’s enough to make things last. If we are meant to stay together, it will happen. You make your own choices in this life, no one can make your choices for you except God.

So be praying for Bryce and I. Things will be so hard for him at bootcamp! And I’ll be at home missing him all of the time. I’ll continue to update you all on this journey. The good, the bad, and the ugly. But all I can say is that I’m so proud to be a military girlfriend. It won’t be easy, but when I see Bryce again and get to hug him close I will remember why I’m waiting in the first place.

New York City

Hey friends! Today I wanna take some time to talk about my missions trip! I travelled to New York City and I had an amazing time.

The theme of this trip was to learn how to pursue the passions God has blessed you with. God uses our passions and our spiritual gifts to fulfill the purpose He has for our lives. Another main lesson for the week was moving onward in our faith. It is so easy to get stuck in one place with our relationship with God, but we need to always keep going. Sometimes we will find ourselves on the wrong path, but Jesus will always welcome us back with open arms.

Something I took away from the week was only going after things that really make me feel inspired. I don’t wanna be the person who does what everyone else does anymore. That’s something I struggle with a lot, and I’m just ready to become the person Jesus made me to be. During high school, I think a lot of people try to fit in the mold or be a certain way. This school year, I want to really focus on who I am supposed to be.

Anyways, my trip was amazing. I have a love for a new place, and New York City is breathtaking. I worked at a soup kitchen all week and it was very eye opening! Everyone was so thankful for our volunteering and it was such an encouragement to me. It reminded me to be thankful for all the blessings God has brought into my life even if they don’t seem like a big deal at the time.

So, now I’m just going to share a lot of pictures down below that I took while I was sightseeing! Thank you for tuning in, and I hope you enjoyed my blog today!

Little Life Update

Hey friends! It’s been a bit since I’ve written a new post, but tomorrow I will embark a new adventure! I’m going on a mission trip, and I could use some prayers.

The past couple of weeks I’ve been busy doing lots of fun things with Bryce and with my other friends. I’ve been reading a lot of good books, and just enjoying my summer. I’ve also been planning some new and awesome things with my friend that I’m super excited about. School starts in just a few weeks for me, so I’m trying to really prepare my heart for the stress and drama school may bring. If you’re a teenager, I recommend you doing this!

One thing I’ve been trying to do these past couple weeks is really dig into The Word of God. I’ve read through Romans, Ecclesiastes, Genesis, and Daniel. I’m slowly beginning to realize how important it is to really get into God’s Word. It gives me a new and great reason to take on the day and whatever challenges may face me.

So, this post is pretty much just a life update for me! I will be working on some new blog posts the next couple days, because I have a lot of traveling going on. So stay tuned, and if there’s anything you want me to blog about, let me know!

Please be praying for me this next week. Pray that my missions trip will go well, and pray that God will open my heart up to some new things. Thanks so much for reading, and I hope you all have had a great couple of weeks!

Being A Dreamer

Hey guys! So the topic I want to talk about today is achieving your dreams. In our society, we constantly hear that we can’t do something or that we aren’t good enough. But I’m here to tell you today that anything is possible! You can do anything you put your heart and soul into.

I have lots of dreams for my life! I want my blog to get 100,000 views ( I’m at about 7,700 right now), I want to write a book, and I wanna travel Europe. I want to do well in college, I want to live in a different country, I want to own a toy poodle and dress it up in cute sweaters. I want to live a life that matters and has purpose.

Some of these dreams are attainable and some not as much, but I really want to make them happen! So I’m doing everything in my power to make them work out for me. Sometimes we have to set some dreams aside because we can’t achieve them right now. But there’s always things we can do right now to achieve our dreams! For example, I can’t travel much right now because I’m only sixteen, but I CAN work on my blog as much as I want to! So for the next couple years that’s what I want to focus my energy on!

If you don’t already, I’d encourage you to write down all your dreams and goals, big or small. All dreams matter and all dreams are important! YOU have the power to make them come true, so do it! 😊 Create a life that you love, TODAY! – Cami

Struggling With Comparison

Hey guys! So today I wanna talk about something that I struggle with sooo much, comparison! I always am scrolling through Instagram and I’ll see girls who are skinner than me. Or I’ll be looking at other peoples blogs and think that they are way more successful than me or that my blog will never be as good as theirs.

I think I struggle with this so much because every person wants to be the best at something. The best Christian, the prettiest, the skinniest, the one with the most followers, etc. I also struggle with becoming totally obsessed with things! Whenever I’m interested in something I get stuck on it and it’s all I talk about! This trait can sometimes be a good thing, but it can also be super toxic if I’m not careful.

Most of my life, I didn’t even realize that I struggle with comparing myself to others. But after talking to Bryce about it for a while I realized that I totally make things idols in my life so easily! So I’m not making this post to say that I’ve conquered comparison, because I’m far from that phase. But I want to begin improving myself to where I’m not comparing myself to others, but comparing myself to Jesus.

Some say comparison is the thief of joy, but I feel like it isn’t just the thief of joy. Comparison is the thief of everything. Remember to keep your eyes on a purposeful and faith based life and self image. Instead of comparing yourself to those who have achievements or awesome talents, be happy for them and encourage them. Celebrate your own progress in this path of life, not perfection. Perfection is unattainable!

So instead of comparing ourselves to others, let’s begin living with more gratitude! Gratitude turns what we have into more than enough. I’m just beginning this path, and I’m praying that with making an effort to compare myself less I’ll become more like the girl Jesus has created me to be.

So, pray for me on this path of becoming more thankful for who Jesus made me to be! Pray that I’ll not compare myself to others and just be the best me I can be! I’ll be praying for you all, too!

Happy Fourth!

Happy Fourth from us to you 🇺🇸💓

Hey everyone! Right now I’m listening to fireworks outside my window while laying in bed totally exhausted. I haven’t blogged in a while because I’ve been celebrating the Fourth of July with Bryce and his family. I’ve had a blast trying new crazy things with him these past few days. I’m so thankful to have such an amazing boyfriend who truly cares about me and always makes me go out of my comfort zone.

I had a blast this week jet skiing, jumping off bridges, and going out on the boat with Bryce! I also ate about ten pounds of ice cream, but it’s okay haha. These are the weeks where I thank God for blessing me with a great life.

It’s a month and three days until Bryce leaves for the Coast Guard, and it gets more real to me everyday. It is going to be so hard having him gone, but also a great opportunity for me to focus on other aspects of life for a while like school and playing soccer. I’m trying to keep a positive mindset through this big life change, and prayers would be greatly appreciated this next month!

Anyways, I want to keep this blog post short and just talk to all my readers for a bit for a small life update! I hope you all had a great Fourth of July ( if you live in America ). Remember to spend time with people you love and thank God that we live in a great country!

5 Daily Habits

Hey guys! So sometimes we get so lost in life and whatever is going on, and we easily forget to take care of ourselves. Today, I’m writing a post to remind you of some good lil habits that will brighten your day or make you a better person over time!

1• Complimenting others is something we often brush aside because we are too caught up in our own little world and what’s going on in it. I feel like if you make others feel good about themselves, it will make you feel happier on the inside as well. Something I personally try to do is compliment or encourage someone else everyday. You can do this by sending a meaningful text, complimenting an outfit, or commenting something nice on a insta post!

2• Choose good friends! Your friends are a huge part of who you are. When you’re around other people a lot, you begin to act like them over time usually. If you hang around friends that don’t motivate or encourage you, you won’t be a motivated or encouraged person. Hang out with friends that love Jesus, are happy, and full of love! Hang out with people that support and truly care about you and invest in your life. Be friends with people you want to be more like.

3• Have some quiet time everyday! I personally need some time alone everyday to refuel for the rest of my day! Take some time to journal, read a book, get into your Bible, or pray. You can pretty much do whatever you want. Quiet time can help you refocus and get your soul and heart in the right place so you can have a good mindset for the rest of your day.

4• Treat yourself! Get a face mask, take a bubble bath, buy a pint of Ben & Jerry’s. Buy the cute purse you’ve been wanting for months. Go get some Mexican food if you’ve been craving it. Whatever makes you happy, indulge in it every once in a while!

5• Read some positive quotes! Everyday, I scroll through Pinterest and read some super good quotes. Quotes get stuck in your head and change the way you think. They are great reminders in life and should be appreciated! So if you haven’t read any good quotes in a while go read some right now! Words have power!!

Even In The Stillness

For such a long time I would feel so discouraged because I would look and search for the presence of God and so desperately long for the chills and that warm fuzzy feeling that you get when you’re worshipping or reading your Bible. BUT one day I figured out that the true glory and the wonder of God can also be felt in the stillness of life. It can be felt by the stillness of who He is at heart.

Sometimes, when we aren’t feeling The Holy Spirit tugging on our hearts and souls as much, we think that maybe we are falling away from our faith. This can certainly be the case at times. However, the presence of God is there. God doesn’t always speak loudly to us. He is always capable of being close to us, so close that He can show you the goodness in His heart from just a simple whisper.

For a period of time in my life about nine months ago, I desperately wanted to feel God’s presence in a heavy way. I always wanted to be wrecked by God. I wanted Him to pick apart my soul and turn it into a masterpiece made to serve Him. I wanted Him to show me who He was in a BIG way.

But over those past nine months, I’ve realized something. Who God is, doesn’t have to be shouted from the mountaintops every single time. Don’t get me wrong; I for sure believe that God does some crazy, extravagant, and amazing things. But what I realized is that God can also be very peaceful. He can be calm. He can be quiet.

God isn’t just with you when you are on that Holy Spirit high. He isn’t just with you when you’re worshiping or when you’re on a mission trip. His spirit is ALWAYS with us. He’s with us in our moments of sin. He’s with us when we are eating our breakfast. He’s with us when we are in our most broken moments of life.

This summer, a thought that I’ve been deeply contemplating is that God is not only our creator, He is also our Father. On one hand, He literally spoke the universe into existence and created everything we’ve ever known. On the other hand, He is a peaceful, loving Father that wants nothing more than a relationship with us. With YOU!

God doesn’t only exist in the moments He is most apparent. He can be found in the peace and quiet. As His followers, we must stop limiting God to moving us and speaking by hearing the mountains tremble and begin to understand that He is truly capable of so much more. God is a God who can make peace out of any storm you may face.

We work so hard to feel God and feel His presence, which is an honorable thing. But we forget He’s already there. He’s already working. He’s already moving. Sometimes I feel like we live Sunday to Sunday, or conference to conference, just waiting for God to do something and waiting for God to speak.

But, He’s already there! You don’t have to wait! The presence of God is already with you and is ALWAYS with you, and I think that’s a beautiful and wonderful thing to soak on. His presence lives inside of us. Remember that.